Simply;Michelle.

There’s NO way I could EVER be done with you.

Scratch that, I’m not

Show you I’m different?

Really?

After FIVE years, I don’t have to show or prove anything.

I am how I am.
Like it or leave it.

After 5 years?
‘Show me you’re different.’

I’m S0 done.

We got into a bad arguement like we ALWAYS do.

I go home, && you break up with me over a TEXT.

5 years, && you end it all, with a TEXT?

I NEVER stopppppppped caring about you or stopped loving you.

I didn’t want us to end.
Last thing I would ever want.

But that’s what YOU wanted.
You made the decision to leave me.

So I don’t expect you to ‘care’.
I already assume you don’t care.

Don’t expect me to ‘try’, because i won’t try for someone who doesn’t want to he with me.

*you break up with someone because you don’t want to be with them anymore.* RIGHT?

like I had said, you want me back, I’m right here for your taking.

If not, then thanks for everything.

You have NO right to be calling me getting all crazy like that.

You LEFT ME.

You don’t have the right to act that way with me anymore.

You think I don’t care?
Seriously?

I have never stopped caring.

YOU DID.
That’s why you LEFT.

Why I did bother?

Really?! Why?! Why did I bother going to your game?

You don’t care that I went!

It took me like 2 hours to build up the courage to call you.
&&
When I did,

You made me feel so stupid, why the fuck did you try Michelle!?

Answer: in hopes somehow that shitty phone call would fix things. Because you really miss him && wanted to hear his voice, even if it was just for a second.

THAT’S WHY.

WHY ARE YOU SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT MICHELLE?!

Worst day ever

I really did have such a shitty day at school.

- I didn’t talk to anyone in my 1st per.

- Sat all by myself at brunch, crying into my buritto, that I couldn’t eat. I just cried holding it in my hand. (Pathetic)

- Continued my crying into 2nd period. WOULDN’T stop. Hardest thing ever was to force myself to pretend I was okay.

- Be annoyed && bothered ALL 3rd period. Seriously? I’m not your fucking ‘baby’. Get the fuck away from me. (Made me miss babe more than I already was..)

- Sat alone at lunch. Pretending to do homework. Trying not to cry some more. Thank god for Alicia && Oscar who came to sit with me.

- I was okay 4th period.

After school was good.
I went to his Senior night baseball game. I remembered how he wanted me to go. So, I did. Also watched the indoor soccer game, which was cool, the AC saved my life.

It was really nice hanging out with Toni.

I miss you so much.

UGH.

HE broke up with ME.

if he wants to be with me, he’d make it happen.

Of course I still want to be with him.
He’s my soul mate.

But, why try to be with someone who leaves you?

Knowing how much he means to me?

How much I NEED him?

&&
He still just leaves..

If someone leaves, obviously they don’t wanna be with you.

&&
Maybe someday I’ll find someone who REALLY wants to be with me.
Who WON’T give up on me.